Joshua holds an extra special part of my heart. When I was 12 weeks pregnant with him, they told me I had miscarried. After hours in the hospital ER, they finally sent me to labor and delivery where I asked them if they were going to make sure I had lost my baby before they went forward with the D&C. They did the ultra sound and there he was, his little heart still beating. When they told us we had lost him, we were devastated. It is unbelievable how much you can love someone you haven't even met yet. All this happened the same week we found out about Mandy having cancer. It was a very emotional time for all of us.
That brings us to Isaiah. I never thought I would talk Bill into another baby but he knew how much I wanted a little girl (and some where deep down so did he). Isaiah is my little "Curious George" always asking questions and getting into something he shouldn't. I wish we could get back the money for all the soap, shampoo, toothpaste, etc. that he has dumped down the drain or flushed down the toilet just to make bubbles! I got the call today that he has been excepted into preschool. I am not sure how I am going to handle having all of my kids in school next year.
Anyway, I had a nice Mother's Day with my husband and kids. I got coffee in bed, 4 homemade cards, a new pot set, and my favorite dinner made for me. And even though it doesn't always seem like it, I received the first of the best gifts of my life 14 years ago.